mobility aid rant

⚠️ This blog shares my personal, sometimes painful experiences with MS and mental health. My intention is to speak honestly and offer solidarity—not to harm or replace professional advice. I’m not a doctor or therapist, just someone who gets how hard it can get. If you’re struggling, you’re not alone. Please reach out to a trusted friend, support group, or professional. You deserve help and hope.⚠️

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A very good afternoon to you, whoever you are, wherever you’re from—whether it’s Mars, ancient Tartaria, or just your local pub. I hope your weekend is less chaotic than mine.

The Finger That Came Back (And Other Small Miracles)

Albertine’s finger, which was dramatically removed and then just as dramatically returned by the NHS, is now looking remarkably good like it never left at all. A true medical miracle! We’re down one person in the household due to this ordeal, meaning I’m now single-handedly responsible for keeping everything from collapsing into chaos a task that requires both Herculean effort and a healthy dose of dark humour.

The 4-Wheel Scooter of Death (Still in the Garage, Thankfully)

My new mobility scooter dubbed the 4-wheel scooter of death remains safely locked away in the garage. I refuse to unleash it upon the world after its near-fatal roundabout incident.

Accelerates like a runaway train Cuts out at crucial moments (like, say, when you’re about to get hit by a bus) Jerked me home with no power, leaving me questioning my life choices I’ve sent at least three emails (possibly five) to the company that sold it to me, and not a single response. This suggests either:

They’re aware of the design flaws but don’t care. My emails are being filtered out as spam (which, given their quality, is entirely plausible). They’ve already written my obituary. Either way, I’m now forced to use the 3-wheel trolley of death—a device that last year attempted to throw me under a bus. Cheap scooters: not fit for purpose.

The UK’s Mobility Scooter Problem (Or: Why Can’t We Have Electric Cars That Actually Work?)

I remember the old blue mobility cars reliable, sturdy, and built to last. Now? We get these flimsy, half-baked electric scooters that are basically death traps.

Why can’t we have small, fast, reliable electric vehicles? They exist in China! Why not here?

The government is pushing us toward electric everything except for the things disabled people actually need. Where’s my 30-40 mph electric car? I don’t care if it runs on petrol, diesel, or even bullshit—just give me something that doesn’t try to kill me.

The Electrical Storm in My Brain (Or: Why I Look Like a Mad Scientist)

I was supposed to go to the market today, but I’m not feeling well. Brain fog, stress, and that weird electrical storm sensation the kind of feeling you can’t describe unless you’ve experienced it yourself.

Looking in the mirror at 67, with my hair falling out faster than a bald eagle in a hurricane, I find it amusing (in a deeply cynical way). Life’s choices, eh?

A New Project: The MS Podcast (Or: Why We Need More Dark Humour)

I’ve been asked to help with a podcast about multiple sclerosis a place where people can ask questions and hear from those of us living this neurological adventure first-hand. Dark humour is the only thing keeping me going.

My brain feels like a bowl of mush being stirred by a spoon, and my mental faculties are… questionable. But hey, at least I have something to write about.

What Would an Borg Think of This?)

An Borg, observing this post, might conclude:

"Subject exhibits signs of neurological dysfunction coupled with an apparent fascination for mobility devices that actively attempt to injure them. Recommendation: Observe from a safe distance." "Human humour is inefficient but effective. Sarcasm detected at 98%. Probability of dark comedy success: 100%."

Final Thoughts (Or: Why I’m Still Here)

I send all readers whether you’re human, interdimensional, or from ancient Tataria peace, healing, love, and light (even if it’s refracted through layers of sarcasm).

If you are from another dimension, drop me a line. A neurologically challenged man like myself would love to hear your perspective.

Warlock Dark Chronic illness survivor, truth-teller, occasional bastard. From My Living Hell (For those who came here by accident: yes, my living hell is real. And yes, we still fight. Every shitty day. With defiance.)
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⚠️ Please read with care: This blog shares personal, sometimes painful experiences. My intention is to support and speak honestly—not to harm. I’m not a professional, just someone who understands how hard it can get. If you're struggling, you're not alone—please reach out for help.

Friday afternoon. Chemist run? Missed it. Instead, I got hounded by the machine of ultimate dysfunction—a glorified vending machine for pharmaceuticals, wrapped in 1950s dystopia and powered by paranoia. It’s supposed to "help." What it actually does is make HAL from 2001 look like a friendly toaster. I call it The Ultimate Fail. Honestly, if it could cackle, it would.

But I couldn't face it. Not today. Not with the 3-Wheeled Trolley of Death waiting for me like some cracked-out shopping cart with a speed fetish and suicidal tendencies. That scooter’s cost me more in bloody batteries than I paid for the sodding thing. Bargain? More like financial sinkhole on wheels.

And my wheelchair? FUBAR. Been waiting over four months for a replacement because, of course, if you’re disabled, everything suddenly costs the same as a small warship. Ever tried buying disability aids without selling a kidney? Welcome to the club. Population: pissed off.

It’s the little things, isn't it? Like remembering Brian Trigg, Gallows Corner, Essex, 1970s. Snooker hall. Lost touch, but if you're out there mate, shout me back. Funny how names bubble up like spirits from the muck of memory.

Speaking of old spirits RIP Ozzy. A part of the Sabbath is gone. And Hulk Hogan too. Prefer the NWO version, personally. Darker. Grungier. Realer. The heroes of our youth are dying. We’re next, aren't we?

And the weekend? Oh, the glorious British weekend. Rainy misery incoming, plus I had half a mind to go to Plymouth me, my trolley of doom, and my degenerating sense of dignity. But sod that, the weather and my batteries are conspiring to assassinate my plans.

So yeah, chemist run tomorrow. Maybe. If I don’t die trying to cross the bloody road first.

Sometimes I look at myself and think, “Yeah, you need a bib now, mate.” I'm regressing. Dribbling. Slouching toward absurdity. No telly in 15 years. No papers in 30. Sanity? Optional.

Messy as fook. And then some.

I write in ink and fury, in breath and broken bone.
Through storm and silence, I survive. That is the crime and the miracle.