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Remember waking up to crackling radios and rock ‘n’ roll drifting through the air… before life became complicated?
Well, good morning, good afternoon, good evening, wherever you are, fellow humanoids and NHIs. Yes, it's the weekend and my weekend starts here. Do you remember those words back on the radio back in the 60s and 70s if you're that old? I do. I used to remember the weekends when I used to wake up and you used to hear the rock and roll music blaring out of the old transistor radio. Yes, listening to Tony Blackburn and radio one back in the 60s and 70s. What a lovely sunny, sunny morning you used to wake up, listening to Ed Stu-pot and his weird weird stuff. What absolute memories of a blast from the past. I know it may sound very cheesy now, but the music back then was essentially amazing. Some of the bands they had then still stand the test of time, even on these times that we live in now. And more so, I often think.
fun and motorcycles seem to go together
So when I was really, really young, I used to have a dirt bike and I used to take it up to the old railway track. And I suppose I would only have been 9, 11. When we used to do this myself and a group of friends and we used to spend the weekend just having fun. Without any care in the world whatsoever. It was an old gellira 80 and wow we used to do insane things riding up steep banks making jumps jumping over people doing all the sorts of things these days that would oh my god yes you'd need a safety man there and all sorts of safety equipment because it definitely wasn't health and safety time then my word no somebody could have really got hurt But it's only when you look back that you sadly realize these things, because when you're young you think you're completely indestructible. So most weekends we would take our old bikes, wheel them up to the old railway or the farmers field and we would spend the morning or an afternoon scrambling and riding around. Nobody really bothered us, nobody really cared. And we just had loads and loads of fun. On a Saturday and a Sunday afternoon, bothering no one. But that was the late 60s, early 1970s. Boy, how things have now changed.
Chemist's machine from hell.
Well amazing news on the chemist's machine from hell dispensing automation units. It's not going to have a problem with any of my prescriptions anymore. Isn't that fantastic? I went into the chemists and I've now managed to get it all sorted out. Oh wow. Yeah, that saves me many frustrating visits to the chemist. Trying to put a code into a machine that did not like me, that hated me, that I am sure when it saw me coming thought ah, we will get him, he will not get his medication. So I'm looking forward to my next prescription. Oh yes indeed. When I get my medication I will be hoping that it will go as smooth as smooth can be. But we will see. The thing is I don't like pressing buttons unless I've got gloves on because you never know what you can catch from buttons that you press. Oh indeed always remember take a pair of rubber or plastic gloves with you when you have to open doors and use petrol pumps etc because it's amazing where bugs and lurgies lay waiting to pounce Giving you a severe diarrhea dilemma or even a vomit virus. and a lot of people don't wash their hands and when they go to use a petrol pump or a door handle well there we go. So there we go take care when you're out there and remember wash your hands thoroughly wherever you go. I know I do.
Things I take with me on a trip.
I suppose the most important thing for me is to make sure I have everything on a trip. So even if it's to the local doctors or the local shop or even far away, I always make sure I have a bag packed in case of emergency because you never know when you're going to need things.
I always make sure that on my phone I have my ice numbers, that's in case of emergency numbers that people can phone. Well, in case of an emergency. And of course there's various articles of spare clothing and various medications. Always remembering to keep hydrated and to take a bottle of water with you as well. Yes. I can carry medical cannabis with me, funnily enough. So I have to keep my prescription with me when I carry it. So that's very weird. It's a very strange feeling when you're going in your power chair around a shopping center. And you've got a pot of cannabis on you and you're going past a policeman for instance. You sort of stop and you're sort of there thinking, "My God!" You know, that really does give me a head trip. But me personally, I have found that police very helpful when I have had dealings with them. In fact, they've always been very helpful. But that's on the occasions I've needed them. But I find them quite cheerful overall. And I suppose if you treat them with respect, they'll treat you with respect. And that's the way I think we should always pay respect to doctors, nurses, firemen, ambulancemen, and all the people out there who put their lives at risk for us.
Yes, we really should say a big thank you to all of them, no matter who they are. Even if it's down to the loneliest cleaner, we should say a massive big thank you. And I suppose that goes for most people in the community in the society we live in. You know, if we're all to be more polite and happier and smile towards each other, things might slowly change. But that's just me thinking a little bit outside of the box, remembering how things used to be in the 1960s and 1970s, and seeing things change so drastically. It's heartbreaking seeing some of those changes that have indirectly incurred on people's lives. It is truly, truly sad.
The weekend and AI
I was hoping to actually go somewhere this weekend, but there is nothing going on, nothing happening around here. So I guess I'm stuck inside again this weekend. I am still working on the AI project and I'm running an AI from my own computer now and not using the main server. I'm using my PC instead. I must say the answers that I am getting is a lot better than we would have got from the filtered AI on the usual AI platforms. Still, looking out the window it is very hot this morning, and my word, I think we're in for a scorching weekend. Saturday morning, looking out the window, oh my god, the weather is blowing me away. I think I'm going to have to get my power chair out and go for a ride this afternoon. Yes, indeed, it will be fun. But then again I might not. Just depends on how things go. My autonomic dysfunction is giving me a bad underlying feeling today and yeah that's not very pleasant. Tinnitus has calmed down quite considerably today which is itself a miracle. So I suggest if you're in a sunny place and get lots of sunshine and vitamin D, hydrate and go out and get warm and feel the warm sunshine rays of healing on your skin.
Still sending everyone who reads this blog, peace, healing, love and light, to whomever and whatever you are and wherever you are from.
Warlock Dark Chronic illness survivor, truth-teller, occasional bastard. From My Living Hell (For those who came here by accident: yes, my living hell is real. And yes, we still fight. Every shitty day. With defiance.)
