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please remember I suffer with severe cognitive dysfunction this may be a confusing read. non AI content
Well good morning fellow humanoids it's a mundane mid-morning the sun is slightly out and there's a bit of drizzle and I'm actually going out this morning which makes a change it seems the pain has started to calm down everything went really well on Friday it seemed all the people that needed to help me suddenly appeared and I was able to get myself sorted out completely with the doctors and also get another appointment with the physio as well I found it quite funny when the doctor asked me on the phone what was wrong with me and then I rattled off a list I thought that was quite funny and I felt sorry for the doctor but I'm now on the mend from this but as usual the multiple sclerosis has added to the big kicking that I am taking
I have had a lot of thought and a lot of time to think over the past few days about some of the things that have been happening to me over the past years seeing weird stuff whether it be liminal shapes or so-called uaps or UFOs or orbs and I have since very strange things like people that don't seem to be in our reality and I have also seen people's eyes change from perfectly normal into cat yes and then proceeded to run away from me I found that very strange but I have since and very strange things throughout a whole of my life a lot of things I have tried to make sense of to see whether it is my MS causing these things to happen or it is reality a real thing that is happening to me now most of the things that have happened I have proof of because other people have seen them and experienced some of the things but when it comes to telling groups or trying to find out what is going on what is going on with me it seems that nobody wants to know they think I'm some sort of nut but I am experiencing all these things and I am finding it ever more increasingly annoying that no one will listen to what I have to say and take me seriously
You see you can postulate and you can talk with AI about UFOs ultra terrestrials aliens uaps and all those sorts of things but when it finds out that you have multiple sclerosis and severe automotic dysfunction it puts it all down to that and says you're seeing things and that you're hearing things and that you need to yes you know it tries to sanitize everything and try to make me feel as though I'm going bonkers
But I don't really care about that because it's my lived raw reality and I want people to know what I'm going through even if it is my Ms causing this or there is something more on the other side of the veil causing this I would really like to know there's nothing like talking to somebody who has a lot of knowledge and who is prepared to listen and to have a proper conversation a deep proper conversation about things without fear of being laughed at two people or a group of people postulating about what could be or what has happened comparing it with other experiences of the like that just doesn't happen I Wish It Would but alas I don't think so groups and people who are supposed to specialize in these sorts things have never got back to me when I have emailed them and told them of my story because it is so wild and so many things that have happened to me over the past 66 years I could go into detail of all these things if I really really wanted to but what would be the point because nobody's going to take me seriously that's the conclusion that I have now come to even though we may have Disclosure from America people people still don't want to know so yeah I get people just don't want their paradigm to be shifted hey ho never mind I suppose getting that off my chest made me feel a little bit better
Well the kittens seem to be all over the place this morning they're not really kittens anymore they're turning into cats there are fine pair of mischievous felines who have to go into the vets to have their operations to stop the mask kitten explosion in the area which is only fair I suppose and get them both microchipped they bring me so much pleasure and so much happiness there's nothing like having a cat sat on your lap purring away
Still at least the warm weather will start coming soon and hopefully I shall start being able to go out as my new wheelchair will be arriving apparently by the end of this month that makes me very happy indeed so it means I'll no longer be housebound
Looking back the first two months of this year have been quite hellacious for me and I will be glad when things start settling down when my health starts to understand me lol hopefully soon I should be going to the new hospital to see the neurologist I suppose really it didn't help just before Christmas that I changed hospitals I suppose that is my bad because it's caused confusion everywhere
So I do worry about what I've put down because it will probably be make everybody else then kind of a bit weird or eccentric but that's life I'm afraid I've been experiencing weirdness for the whole 66 years of my life and I've been trying to find out what's been going on as well all those years to varying degrees of success from being called bonkers mad weird all sorts a tin foil hat wearing conspiracy theorist everything insulted the general stuff you have to put up with when you're into things that people find weird or scary to them
Because for most people it is not part of their reality is it and it's furthest thing they would be thinking of but now with Donald Trump making this so-called speech this week about uap's aliens etc just imagine when he says that they are real well that mean that all those weird things that I have seen over the years were real and I was actually vindicated with all the things that I have seen yes I know some of it could have been technology from the humanity that exists on this planet..
So I came to the conclusion many years ago that people have their own paradigm and they do not like going outside of it as a mostly feel uncomfortable but for the most part it fascinates me that there could be life somewhere else and I think it would be silly to think that we were the only sentient life on this blue marble as well as I believe there are people from other places dimensions or worlds living amongst us totally undetected and probably watching us and thinking my god what a cock up they have made of the world lol...
And then some again some of it could be from another place like another planet or dimension so let's hope that Donald tells it like it is and brings out all those amazing files because it will certainly make me feel better but it will change everybody's paradigm shift that's for sure for good this is the Year That Everything Changes worldwide that's the sure that's all the great psychics of pointed out
still that's it from me rambling on sending to everybody no matter who or what you are peace healing love and light
Warlock Dark Chronic illness survivor, truth-teller, occasional bastard. From My Living Hell (For those who came here by accident: yes, my living hell is real. And yes, we still fight. Every shitty day. With defiance.)
