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25 classic MS moments turned into the world's least desirable bingo game. Dark humour, brutal honesty and no bloody prizes. Forgot why you entered a room? Tripped over absolutely nothing? Nearly wet yourself while the toilet was twelve feet away? Congratulations you've just marked another square on MS Bingo, the only game where winning feels suspiciously like losing.

MS Bingo: The Game No One Wants to Win

Welcome to MS Bingo the only game where the prizes include fatigue, bladder urgency, brain fog and accidentally walking into a door frame.

No purchase necessary.

No skill required.

In fact, having skill may actively work against you.

All you need is Multiple Sclerosis, a functioning sense of black humour and the emotional resilience to shout “BINGO!” while lying on the kitchen floor wondering why your left leg has resigned.

HOW TO PLAY

Simple.

Read the squares.

Every time one happens, mark it off.

Five in a row?

BINGO.

Complete the entire card?

Congratulations.

You win absolutely fuck all.

Except perhaps an appointment in six months and another leaflet explaining fatigue.

THE MS BINGO CARD

1. Forgot Why I Walked Into the Room

You made the journey.

You overcame the legs.

You entered the room.

Unfortunately, your brain forgot to come with you.

Stand there looking confused for thirty seconds.

Return to original room.

Remember immediately.

Classic.

2. Tripped Over a Shadow

No obstacle.

No step.

No loose carpet.

Possibly not even a shadow.

Your nervous system simply decided upright was getting repetitive.

MARK YOUR CARD.

3. Pretended to Be on My Phone to Hide a Tremor

Nothing suspicious here.

Just checking...

erm...

the weather.

For seventeen minutes.

While gripping the phone with both hands like I'm defusing a bomb.

4. Called an Everyday Object “The Thingy”

Could you pass me the...

The...

You know.

The fucking...

THINGY.

Everybody knows what I mean.

Except apparently everybody.

5. Nearly Wet Myself Because the Toilet Was Twelve Feet Away

To an ordinary person: twelve feet.

To an MS bladder:

THE NORTH FACE OF EVEREST.

6. Walked Like I Was Drunk While Completely Sober

Bonus point if somebody gave you the look.

Double bonus if this happened before breakfast.

7. Dropped Something Immediately After Picking It Up

Pick up keys.

Drop keys.

Pick up keys.

Drop keys.

Consider simply moving house and leaving the keys where they are.

8. Forgot Someone's Name Mid-Conversation

You've known this person for fifteen years.

You've attended their birthday parties.

You've met their children.

Today their name is:

Mate.

9. Bounced Off a Door frame

Door width: perfectly adequate.

Your trajectory: apparently calculated by a drunken satellite.

10. Lost My Phone While Holding My Phone

Do not laugh.

The brain fog was conducting an investigation.

The primary suspect was the phone.

Which was in my hand.

11. FREE SPACE — FATIGUE

Naturally the centre square is fatigue.

Because unlike normal bingo, MS gives everyone the free square whether they bloody wanted it or not.

12. Had to Sit Down After Getting Dressed

Getting dressed.

A task previously considered preparation for the day.

Now apparently the day itself.

13. Used the Wrong Word and Just Carried On

"Put the milk in the washing machine."

You know what I meant.

I know what I meant.

The milk knows what I meant.

Move on.

14. Leg Suddenly Stopped Cooperating

Left leg reporting for duty.

Right leg:

I'm sorry, this department is now closed.

15. Had an Unexpected Spasm in Public

Your body suddenly performs interpretive dance.

Nobody asked it to.

Least of all you.

16. Needed a Rest After Having a Rest

Normal person:

"I feel refreshed."

MS person:

"That was exhausting."

17. Forgot What I Was Saying Halfway Through Saying It

I was making an excellent point about...

...

Oh, fuck it.

Next square.

18. Tried to Pick Something Up and Somehow Kicked It Further Away

You bend down.

Miss.

Kick object.

Object travels underneath furniture.

You stare at it.

It stares back.

Object wins.

19. Bladder Gave Approximately Four Seconds' Notice

Thank you for your generous warning.

Next time perhaps send the notification before opening the floodgates.

20. Had to Explain “No, I'm Not Drunk”

Again.

No.

Still neurological.

Still sober.

Still walking like I'm returning from a three-day stag weekend.

21. Forgot Whether I'd Taken My Medication

Did I take it?

I remember thinking about taking it.

Did thinking about taking it become taking it?

Excellent.

Now we have Medication Schrödinger's Cat.

22. Started a Job and Forgot What the Job Was

Cleaning kitchen.

Find letter.

Read letter.

Remember email.

Open phone.

See photo.

Start looking at photos.

Twenty minutes later you're sitting down holding a spoon with absolutely no idea how the adventure began.

23. Laughed Because the Alternative Was Crying

Possibly the most important square on the card.

Not because MS is funny.

Sometimes it absolutely isn't.

But occasionally the sheer ridiculousness of living inside an unreliable nervous system becomes so absurd that laughter is the only sensible response left.

24. Said “I'm Fine” While Clearly Being Held Together by Sarcasm

The universal chronic illness translation:

"How are you?"

"Fine."

Meaning:

Three systems have failed, one leg is negotiating independence and I haven't properly slept since Tuesday, but neither of us has time for the full answer.

25. Got BINGO Before Breakfast

Congratulations.

You have achieved peak Multiple Sclerosis.

Your prize is...

another day with Multiple Sclerosis.

Hooray.

THE REAL POINT OF MS BINGO

Behind the joke, every square represents something that can be genuinely frustrating, humiliating, exhausting or frightening.

Cognitive problems are real.

Mobility problems are real.

Tremor is real.

Bladder dysfunction is very bloody real.

Fatigue isn't laziness.

And when your body stops doing things you've spent your entire life taking for granted, laughing about it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

Sometimes dark humour is simply refusing to let MS have ownership of every miserable moment.

If my nervous system insists on turning life into a ridiculous game...

I reserve the right to take the piss out of the rules.