SpiritualAwakening

well this appears to be my coat of arms it was added into an old image of brain neurons I think I could explain what it all means, but I am to knackered lol and I doubt any one will ever see this except me lol

next day....

Custom Coat of Arms — Concept Description Shield (Escutcheon): Main colors: Black background with red and silver/gold elements — representing strength, mystery, and ancient nobility.

Design:

Top Left Quadrant: A silver pentagram, representing mysticism and your identity as a psychic and warlock.

Top Right Quadrant: A stylised black cat, seated and regal, symbolising your favourite animal and intuition.

Bottom Left Quadrant: A golden crown, nodding to your royal ancestry — Edward I, no less.

Bottom Right Quadrant: A red MS awareness ribbon, stylised into a sword shape to represent being a warrior despite adversity.

Crest (top of the helmet): A silver raven with glowing red eyes, perched on a stack of spellbooks and USB drives — representing wisdom, tech history, and your dual mastery of the mystical and the digital.

Mantling (decorative fabric): Flowing black and crimson, tattered at the edges — not worn, but weathered with experience and humour.

Supporters (creatures on either side of the shield): Left: A ghostly knight in cracked armour — to symbolise your fighting spirit and long lineage.

Right: A sarcastic black cat wearing a crown askew — a bit of cheeky English humour with teeth.

Motto (on scroll beneath): “Well… Is That It?” A perfect dry, witty summation of both a life well-fought and your no-nonsense view of it.

      “The views in this post are based on my personal  
          experience. I do not intend harm, only honesty.”

As I look back over the years of my spiritual awakening, I see a path shaped by intuition, nature, love, and deep inner truths. It hasn't always been easy—there were moments of doubt, unlearning, and rebirth—but through it all, a few guiding principles stayed with me. One of the most sacred? The Wiccan Rede.

When I first discovered the Rede, it felt like coming home. Its verses weren’t just poetic—they echoed the values I had begun to live by: harmony, accountability, connection to nature, and the power of intention.

The Rede opens with a call to integrity:

"Bide within the Law you must, in perfect Love and perfect Trust." These words taught me that spiritual power means nothing without compassion and respect—for myself, for others, and for the Earth.

I found comfort in the way it honors the Moon, the winds, the changing seasons, and the trees. The rhythm of the Rede helped me sync with the natural world, reminding me that we are never separate from it.

It also deepened my practice of magick—not just as ritual, but as conscious living. It taught me to:

Speak less, listen more

Work with nature, not against it

Celebrate the Wheel of the Year, honoring both light and shadow

Most importantly, the Rede carries the essence of Wiccan ethics in just eight words:

"An it harm none, do what ye will." This became a cornerstone in my spiritual evolution. It doesn't mean doing whatever I want—it means living with freedom and responsibility. Every choice, every spell, every word has energy. That awareness changed me.

Over the years, this Rede became more than a belief system—it became a living code. A gentle reminder that love, balance, and intention are what truly matter.

If you're on your own awakening journey, I share this not as a rulebook, but as inspiration. Let your path be yours. Listen to your soul. And above all, walk gently in the world.

🌿 The Wiccan Rede — A Modern Reflection

Here's a modernized and respectful version of The Wiccan Rede (Full Version) that keeps its spiritual essence but uses more accessible, contemporary language. It’s written to honor the original, while making it easier to connect with for modern readers, especially those on a spiritual awakening journey:

         The Wiccan Rede — A Modern Reflection

Live by the natural laws with love and trust in your heart. Live your life fully, and let others live theirs. Give and receive with fairness.

When casting your sacred circle, walk it three times to keep negative energy out. Speak your spells with clear intention—rhyming helps focus the energy.

Stay observant and gentle. Speak less, listen more. Respect the Ancient Ones in word and action; let love and light guide your path.

Move clockwise with the waxing moon, and celebrate with joyful chants. Move counterclockwise when the moon wanes, for reflection and release.

When the New Moon rises, honor the Goddess with reverence. At the Full Moon, focus on manifesting your heart’s desires.

When the North wind blows strong, stay grounded and protect your space. With the East wind comes fresh energy—embrace new beginnings.

The South wind brings passion and love. The West wind soothes and brings emotional peace.

Nine sacred woods feed the ritual fire—each with its own power: Birch for beginnings, Oak for strength, Rowan for protection. Willow brings connection to the afterlife. Hawthorn draws faerie energy. Hazel enhances wisdom. Apple brings love and fertility. Vine offers joy and celebration. Fir represents eternal life. But never burn Elder—it’s sacred to the Goddess.

Celebrate the year through the Wheel of the Sabbats: Samhain marks endings and new beginnings. Imbolc is a time of hope and early growth. Beltane celebrates life and passion. Lammas honors harvest and inner strength.

Mark the solstices and equinoxes too: Yule celebrates the return of light. Ostara brings balance and new life. Litha is when light peaks and power surges. Mabon is the time of reflection and giving thanks.

Learn from the earth—plants, flowers, and trees carry ancient wisdom. Speak truth, and stay true to your needs—don’t give in to greed.

Avoid foolishness and drama; keep your circle kind and wise. Greet others with warmth, and part with kindness.

Follow the Threefold Law—whatever you send out comes back three times over, for better or worse. If trouble comes, wear your symbol with pride and protection.

Be honest in love, unless love is dishonest with you.

And always remember the heart of the Rede:

"If it harms none, do as you will."

      “The views in this post are based on my personal  
          experience. I do not intend harm, only honesty.”

So here we are, diving headfirst into the weirdness that is my life — or what’s left of it after being slowly, methodically gnawed apart by progressive multiple sclerosis. Charming, right?

I knew things weren’t quite right from the start. I wasn’t imagining it, pretending, or trying to skip PE. I was nine years old with legs like jelly and nerves that fired like broken Christmas lights. I knew something was off. My body wasn’t working properly. It never has. And it’s been downhill ever since — no brakes, no map, no helpful roadside breakdown service.

Spoiler alert: I have MS. Progressive MS. The slow-burn, never-look-back, “enjoy the ride, it only gets worse” variety. And I’ve been fighting it for over 50 years — most of that in silence. Unheard. Unseen. Ignored. Dismissed. “Attention-seeking.” “Hysterical.” You know the drill.

Back then, there was no MRI magic or lumbar puncture fun day out. No one believed me. No one wanted to. The doctors — ah, bless them — thought I was putting it on. For the drama, I suppose. Because pretending to lose control of your limbs is all the rage when you're a kid trying to survive school.

Forty years. That’s how long it took them to finally notice. Forty. Can you even fathom that? I had all the textbook symptoms, but apparently, I was just making a lifestyle choice — you know, becoming progressively disabled for the vibes.

Eventually, they finally dragged me into hospital for all the fancy tests that proved, lo and behold: I wasn’t a liar, I wasn’t mad — I was just slowly falling apart from something called MS. Ta-dah. Gold star. Thanks for coming.

And honestly? It was a relief. Not the diagnosis — that sucked. But the proof. The closure. The validation. After decades of being told it was in my head, turns out it was in my spinal cord all along. Go figure.

But here’s the twist — I didn’t just survive that hell. Somewhere along the line, I changed. Call it spiritual, call it delusional, I don’t really care — I had what you might call a cosmic chat with the universe. Serapis Bey (look him up if you like mystics with style) paid me a visit, and something clicked. I shifted. I transformed. Something deep happened.

I’m not the person I used to be. Not even close. And people who knew me before can’t believe the person standing before them now. It’s like I underwent a total soul renovation with added glitter and spiritual scaffolding.

This world isn’t built for people like me — the weird, the ill, the eccentric, the inconvenient. If you’re different, you get ignored. Gaslit. Written off. But I’m still here. And I’ve got a voice, even if some days I barely have the strength to lift a cup of tea.

So here’s my truth: I’m strange. I’m spiritual. I’m sarcastic. I’m raging at the system but laughing through the pain. I have MS — but I’m still me.

To the others out there, like me — the unheard, the “difficult cases,” the ones who’ve been shoved into the corner because they didn’t tick the easy boxes: you’re not alone.

Don’t let this world break you. Let it sharpen you.

Rebuild. Reclaim. Be weird. Be you.

And if you’re ever in the dark, just remember — some of us are out here, lighting the way with rage, humour, and a whole lot of “f*** you” to the system that failed us.

🧠💥 40 Years Misdiagnosed. Still Here. Still Loud. They told me it was in my head. It was — just also in my spine, my nerves, and every inch of my being. This is the story of living with undiagnosed progressive MS for over 40 years. Ignored. Dismissed. Unheard. And yet — I never gave up. I changed. Spiritually, physically, mentally. I became something else. This one’s for the misfits, the chronically ill, the eccentric warriors who’ve been told to sit down and shut up. We’re not going anywhere.

🕊️ Who is Serapis Bey? Serapis Bey is known as an Ascended Master — a spiritual teacher who once walked the Earth and has since transcended to guide others on their soul’s evolution. Often associated with the energy of discipline, transformation, and spiritual rebirth, he’s considered the keeper of the White Ray of Ascension.

In short? He’s the no-nonsense cosmic coach who shows up when your life’s gone full chaos and it’s time to rise from the ashes — stronger, clearer, and more you than ever.

He helps guide those going through massive life shifts, especially when it feels like you're being spiritually remade from the inside out. Think: divine tough love with soul-level purpose.

sick@mylivinghell.co.uk

       “The views in this post are based on my personal  
          experience. I do not intend harm, only honesty.”