Chronic Illness and Isolation: Why Awareness Isn’t Enough

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A deeply personal story about life with multiple sclerosis, resilience, and why awareness must go beyond a single week.

Good afternoon fellow humanoids and nhi. It appears I have been living under a stone. It is MS Awareness Week. Indeed, yes it is. There is a problem though. It should be awareness all year round and not for one week of a year. Yeah? I think many of you would agree that there should be awareness about MS and all illnesses and all chronic illnesses. Not just for one week or just one day of a year. People should care all year. Why just for one week? It doesn't make any sense whatsoever does it really?

It's all very well. Some people who have MS, like myself, find it difficult to go on all these activities that everybody else seems to be able to go and do. I for one just don't have the energy anymore and I'm in a power chair and why would I want to go and do archery of all things. Now I couldn't even pull the string bow back. That's how bad things are with me and hell I'm retired now as well. My body is completely fucked. Why would I want to go doing things to make myself feel worse? No I don't.

So yes, I can appreciate some people with MS can do these activities, but there are a lot who can't. And I think probably we feel maybe a little bit left out somehow, because there's no MS groups anymore anywhere. People with MS don't go to meet anywhere. And does the MS nurse say, "Oh, I know, let's start an MS group up for people to go and meet once a month." You know, that would be a nice thing, but those sorts of things don't happen, do they? I think people would like to meet up and have a bit of fun, have a chat and just generally have a couple of hours of unabashed fun. Why not? You know, not just being stuck at home 24/7 doing nothing and being left to rot. But that's only my personal opinion.

There are many things I have had to give up because of multiple sclerosis, some of the things I dearly loved doing So yes, I tried to live on the edge up until I retired. I suppose I was a bit of a rebel. I was a bit of an outlaw. I did things my way. I always have. I'm not one of the sheep. I'm not one of the crowd. I'm an individual. I have a voice. Yes, and I'm different and I'm eccentric and I am very proud of that fact. I ripped my blinkers off many years ago.

I am still learning many many things. Yes, I am and I'm having a great deal of fun learning. I'm using my mind. Yes, I have severe brain fogs and yes, I have severe tinnitus and it is very challenging indeed for me, but I'm never going to give up, even if I can only do ten minutes in a day or even an hour in a day. That is an achievement. Doing a blog post is also an achievement for me as well. Going out, just the local shop, is an achievement for me as well. So yeah, things for me are pretty bad having progressive MS and also this autoimmune dysfunction, which means I can't go out in the summer now because of the histamine from the flowers etc... Well, the hay fever stuff. So there we go. I can't win.

But what I am doing, I am constantly evolving and changing my life around, so as my multiple sclerosis progresses, I progress in ways of trying to make my life better. So it may take away my motorcycle riding at the age of 65. Yeah, now that was a complete blast, I can tell you. Yeah, ha ha. But it was an 1100 trike I had specially built. and I managed to stay on the road with that for about 20 years. So that was a way of staying on a motorcycle. And yes, I even joined a few motorcycle trike clubs as well and got involved in clubs and all sorts of different weird things. But there we go. I did not let my illness stop me. In fact, my illness spurred me on further and further to be more than I was even.

So now, it's the computer and doing all the other things that I like doing as well. And I'm still learning and that makes me happy. So yeah, as long as I take it steady and don't overdo it, I think things might be okay. But I don't know the meaning of take it easy, so I always end up overdoing it or hurting myself. You know, that's just one of the things when you have in bought up like me, when you see something that might need doing, you do it. And well, when you're say 20, 25, 30, easy job, but when you're 66, Yeah, it's easier said than done.

So my words to everybody is, having a chronic illness, for me, has changed my life, perversely, for the better in some ways, but I will say, I'm never giving up, I'm gonna carry on fighting 'til the bitter end. And yeah, I'm not gonna let it beat me.

Still wishing everybody that reads this blog, peace, healing, love and light, no matter whomever or whatever you are, in the world or universe or multiverses even.

Warlock Dark Chronic illness survivor, truth-teller, occasional bastard. From My Living Hell (For those who came here by accident: yes, my living hell is real. And yes, we still fight. Every shitty day. With defiance.)

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